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September 28, 2014 at 10:39pm
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Virtual Reality is my generation’s jetpack or flying car: the technological promise of childhood that never quite arrived. And even now it seems perpetually on the edge of arriving. Oculus Rift is forever just around the next corner, and though there’s been a steady stream of stories about how the technology is the next great breakthrough in multimedia, it’s still not clear how or when it’ll become widely available. But perhaps that’s inevitable. After all, this is much bigger than an incremental breakthrough; this is technology that will change lives, we’re told.

And yet there’s always something slightly off about the latest hardware. Perhaps the screen resolution isn’t quite right, or the head tracking still needs tuning up, or it still makes you feel sick after more than a few minutes of use. Some of these are problems that would be ironed out with extended use, but even as the hype builds around this technology, there’s an air of anxious urgency about the speed at which new hardware revisions keep appearing. Which is the good one, I want to ask: which is the best one, the exemplar of what this can achieve? 

We aren’t there yet. After the initial excitement over the Oculus Rift DK2 and Sony’s Project Morpheus headset came the news of a newer, better model of the Rift, alongside the announcement of something that looks really weird: the Samsung Gear VR, a headset into which the user slots their Samsung Note mobile phone, suspending its powerful screen inches away from their eyes, with a pair of stereoscopic lenses in between.

For all its initial strangeness, the Samsung offer is probably the closest we’ve come yet to a VR product that fits in with a the modern context of technology. With the phone and the headset, everything you need is in the box, bringing it into line with other devices that take the ‘walled garden’ approach. There’s no need to connect it to anything else, to worry about system specifications or graphics drivers; the thing is to reach a balance between the feelings of convenience, power and value for money.

I stress this word because it seems to me that whether or not these devices succeed in reaching a wider market is very much a matter of feeling. There is no emotional base point from which to relate to VR except in science fiction. At this point, only a relative handful of people in the world personally know anyone who uses VR on a regular basis (and those people probably all know each other).

There is no point of reference for how you, the potential consumer, might incorporate it into your life, and so if these systems ever expect to reach an audience beyond the knob-twiddling enthusiasts of the gaming world, they need to present themselves as accessible to people with no special knowledge. And they need to be something more than just a way to watch regular movies or play regular games with a little TV attached to your face. 

The creation of a new medium demands that new media adapt themselves to it, and this has never been more true than with VR. While it’s quite possible to use this technology as a delivery method for traditional content — to simulate the experience of watching a movie in a virtual cinema, for example, or even playing an old Game Boy in a comfy lounge — this seems to me to be of dubious saleable benefit. These things might do for a long-haul flight or a commute, but they won’t entirely replace the pleasant tactility of those original things.

But imagine putting on a headset and watching a new kind of movie, one where you can choose to look around at anything going on in the scene; even over your shoulder, or down at the floor, or up at the sky to watch the clouds. No other movement would be permitted or required, so the moment would be still be entirely directed, but the potential for artistic expression would be completely transformed. Naturally, this would require a complete rethink of the existing way in which movies are made, both in terms of filming techniques and cinematic grammar. But given that many of the current Oculus Rift demos operate in this way, it’s quite possible to imagine these principles being expanded to a full-length feature.

The problem with all this stuff is that to get the really good directors, producers and developers involved, you have to build an audience. And the only proven way to do that is to get to the point where you have a powerful and consistent offer to the people who might buy into this emerging technology.

We’ve moved way past the point where you need a ‘killer app’ to sell a device. When I buy a new Android phone or a Playstation or a Mac, it’s not because they have any one particular piece of software or hardware feature or game that I want in my life; it’s because they promise a whole range of different applications that will make my life easier, or experiences that I want to have. We make a deal when we buy these products: I’ll play in your walled garden, at least for a while; and in return, you’ll provide me with more nice things than I can ever find the time for, and you won’t bother me too much.

It takes years of work to get to this position in any market. The struggle and ultimate failure of ‘microconsoles’ like the Ouya show that you can’t do these things by halves. Simply offering something different in small quantities won’t cut it: you need to be seen as presenting a service which is worthwhile and comprehensive, and which will be supported for years to come. I find the technology fascinating, but despite the constant promise in the press, I still find it hard to imagine owning a really good Virtual Reality device any time soon. For the next couple of years, I suspect it will remain the domain of gaming enthusiasts and specialist developers with a long-term interest in the technology. 

At the moment the most impressive applications for the hardware are the kind of thing that VR was always really good at: games where no full-body movements are required, like flight, space and driving sims; and those brief immersive ‘experiences’ that only really exist to demonstrate the features of the system. There are still the problems with motion sickness and body awareness, but it might be that the only way to overcome those is through gentle, widespread introduction to the interactive language of VR. The real obstacle in finding a wider market will be establishing a solid hardware baseline which is both affordable and adaptable, and in ensuring there’s tens (if not hundreds) of different things to do with it.

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September 18, 2014 at 10:30pm
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sentient meat


We watched all of True Detective not because I have any particular interest in crime fiction or serial killer narratives but because I’d heard things about it that suggested something a little more unusual. People were comparing it (wrongly) to Twin Peaks, and they were (rightly) talking about Thomas Ligotti, which is bound to get my attention. And now that I’ve finished the series, I see where they were coming from — Nic Pizzolatto, the show’s lead writer and creator, has clearly done his reading in that area — but I’ve no idea how the plagiarism question could ever possibly be resolved (if it even is a real question). I doubt whether Thomas Ligotti would care about it either way.

I didn’t like that True Detective has no real female characters. The women in the show are either victims or simply exist to belittle and harass the male leads, and their suffering — of which there is a great deal — exists primarily to outline the unknowable darkness in a world of men. It’s a mixed-up version of the madonna-whore complex, and whether or not it is inherited from the show’s origins in generic pulp fiction, I found this aspect regrettable and uninteresting.

But at first it seemed to be different! The starting points were somewhat predictable — the grisly ritualised murder, the straight cop paired up with a dangerous free-thinking maverick, the obsession with investigation as a kind of rarified asceticism — but the look and feel of the thing was incredible. Louisiana cast in sharp blocks of colour, a world towering inside my TV like the set of a giant diorama. I liked the symbols and the ideas more than I liked any promise of a resolution; most of all I liked the idea that there might not even be any resolution. 

(spoilers to follow.)

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August 20, 2014 at 10:36pm
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no more heroes


On Saturday we went to see the Royal Shakespeare Company’s theatre adaptation of Wolf Hall and Bring up the Bodies by Hilary Mantel.Somehow they have condensed some six or seven hundred pages of prose fiction into two plays, which are presented as separate entities even though I think it would be strange to watch the second without seeing the first.

The adaptation is fine, entertaining and highly professional, but it lacks a certain something which made those books special to me. (Here is me in 2009 writing about the first, and here the second.) Thomas Cromwell is still the focus — he’s on stage in almost every moment of the performance — but we no longer experience the world as focussed through his consciousness. Sometimes the audience is shown something that goes a little beyond objective reality, something that suggests the rich atmosphere of Mantel’s writing, but this is rarely more than a Dickensian ghost-trope. For the most part the play sticks to the facts and tells the story the way the books had it. 

Perhaps this was inevitable. A straightforward dramatic rendition of every line of Mantel’s prose would have made for something far longer — and far stranger — than a mainstream theatre audience could possibly accept. And in their current state, the plays will do very well. In taking the drama of the book and putting it on stage while omitting the literary conceits, they have made something which is great entertainment for all. The plays are basically true to the characters and scenes of the books, even while they omit much of what (for me) makes for great reading.

The novels are permitted the scope and breadth to dwell somewhat on the conflicting motivations and ideas of the time. The reader understands Cromwell as a man calloused by the world, shaped by a rough upbringing and by his time as a mercenary and his later experiences as a trader and accountant; we see this because Mantel shows us in words and scenes that are as immediate as any other part of the plot. But such elements are only mentioned in passing in the plays. These factors are certainly in there — and you can tell that they exist in Ben Miles’ excellent rendition of Cromwell — but you only note them as a motivating factor of a dangerous man. On stage these things become incidental. You aren’t made to feel them, as in the books. 

What is there to like about Thomas Cromwell, once you’ve stripped away the rich interiority of the writing? What we have on stage is man who is extremely adept at getting things done. There is something of Malcolm Tucker in Cromwell on stage. Here, he is admirable as a thoroughly modern political agent. He has no ideas of his own, but he is exceptional, and his capability is absolute. He’s read William Tyndale and Martin Luther but he shows no sign of spiritual motivations, nor does he allow his personal philosophies to guide his actions. He is not seeking anything except security for his household and self-promotion. He knows all the facts, but only deploys them when they are to serve his own ends.

All of this makes me think about what it is we want from our leaders. In popular culture right now, the most compelling figures are not those with big ideas, those who stick to their ideology despite all obstacles. The most admirable people in pop culture are people who know what they’re doing. Whether we agree with or appreciate or enjoy what they do is another matter — they may have good intentions or they might be just plain evil — but they are engaging because there is something worthwhile in their confidence and ruthless efficiency. I’m thinking of Walter White, of Frank Underwood, of so many of the cast of Game of Thrones. Narrative is built around expectations which are often frustrated but ultimately fulfilled, and somebody always gets what they want; whether that thing is any kind of ‘good’ or not is another matter, and perhaps irrelevant.

I wonder if this trend in some way mirrors the diminished expectations of audiences. We have no great leaders, no true icons who can lead us towards any kind of overcoming of the status quo; and even if we did have a new Henry VIII, we might not want him anyway. We simply crave competency from both our public officials and our private bosses. And we don’t especially care about their personal peccadilloes. We’d happily accept a new Tony Soprano, if only he said he’d look after us.

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August 2, 2014 at 5:33pm
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good reading

I use goodreads to record and write something about all the books I read. I’ve been doing this for over two years now, so I thought it worthwhile to write something about that process. I like the site because it enables me to easily catalogue my reading, and to list things I want to read; it’s got pretty much every book with an ISBN on it, and I like the using the app on my phone to scan a barcode and have it appear immediately on my account. I also like using the app in bookshops to remind me of things I’ve been meaning to buy, which is probably the opposite of how it was intended. 

The books I list as ‘read’ solely relate to my current reading. I haven’t used it to show books I read before March 2012 because I don’t rate a book without writing something about it, and having to think and write about a book based only on what might be a distant memory could become an impossible task. I wouldn’t know where to start or when to stop.

I follow people on the site but I don’t delve too far into the social aspect. I have no interest in using it as a platform for written conversations about books, and the woeful user interface always makes it feel more like a database than a post-Facebook social network anyway. My account is more like a little garden that I tend to occasionally; anyone is welcome to come and take a look at what I’ve written, but I have no interest in making it useful or productive beyond its personal value to myself. Doing this frees me from all the perceptions and expectations I’ve developed in connection to this blog. I never worry that I’m pitching something to an invisible audience; I just write about books. 

Initially, I resisted the idea of giving books a rating out of five stars. I just wasn’t interested in doing that, and the idea of having to compare all kinds of book against each another just to try to figure out fair grounds for what three or four or five stars might mean seemed dreadful. The tendency of internet aggregation sites to reduce opinions to these scores is a very bad thing. But the problem with goodreads is that technically it doesn’t acknowledge that you’ve read a book unless you give it a rating. And so, because I’m always keen to submit myself to the dictates of these systems, I caved, and now I hand out stars along with words.

It’s a little disheartening to think that posting a rating for each book has probably been good for attracting readers. Those pieces which attract the most Likes and comments from strangers are generally on the highest or lowest rated books. Some of them do receive peculiar spikes in traffic for other reasons; back in August 2013 I posted an adulatory assessment of Eimear McBride’s quite brilliant novel A Girl is a Half-formed Thing, but it wasn’t until I started receiving a small rush of Likes that I realised the book had reached a wider audience after winning the Baileys Prize for fiction. The thing I wrote about the previous winner of that prize (back when it was sponsored by Orange) had received a few Likes too, but in that case it was because I disliked the book intensely

I always try very hard when I am writing about books not to make it personal. One rather pedantic thing that I’m sure nobody has noticed but which I always think about when writing an assessment of a book (anything but call it a ‘review’) is that I try to refer to the person who wrote the book as ‘the author’, and not by their name. I am always aware that I am reading a thing that somebody has made, made with a great deal of love and attention, and whether or not they’ve put much of themselves into it I want to separate my treatment of that thing from the person who wrote it. Maybe ad hominem attacks have their place, and no doubt slagging off writers and their fans is a great way to attract readers, but it’s just not something I’m interested in doing. 

I write about my reading because it means I’m almost always writing something or thinking about writing something. I like to set myself these little tasks. Other than ‘write something about this book’, I set myself no particular remit or deadline or limit, though I do try to make sure it’s something substantial (at least a paragraph). I just want to express the way the book made me feel in a way that might still be reasonably accessible for somebody who hasn’t read it. Sometimes this ends up being something quite lengthy — sometimes I have thoughts! — but more often than not it comes down to whether or not I enjoyed myself while reading it. Not all books are worthwhile, but I often discover things while writing that I hadn’t thought about before, and that alone makes the process worthwhile to me.

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July 27, 2014 at 6:29pm
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a collection of things i thought about in the supermarket yesterday

  • I wonder what my dad thought about while he was dying. Did he know he was dying while it was happening? Was he afraid? I think perhaps he didn’t know. Perhaps he was in pain and wanted relief, and unconsciousness just came over him like a cover, like when you fall asleep without really noticing it. In that moment there wouldn’t have been time to think about anything. I wonder if he was happy with what he achieved in life. I hope he was but you can never quite tell. Everything changes when you have children, I’m told. 
  • We came in here to buy wrapping paper and some rubber gloves and we’ve already picked up a jar of jam, a bottle of gin, eight lemons, canned tomatoes and beans, and a lot of other things I am sure we don’t really need. The bags are very heavy and I am both hot and cold. This place used to sell a lot of video games and DVDs but they’ve done away with most of them. For some reason the only game they offer is the vanilla PS4 edition of Watch_Dogs. (It’s £48.)
  • I don’t know if my dad ever had any creative ambition. If he did, he never talked about it. Maybe he set it aside before I came along. He enjoyed music and art and theatre and films, and was fairly serious about his knowledge of such things, but as far as I know he never felt any urge to express himself in any formal way. The things he did write to me (emails, text messages) were short and to the point, but lacked nothing in the way of affection. You couldn’t say they were cold. Once my grandmother said he was a sentimental man but this aspect was not often expressed.
  • Of course it does not follow that his life was in any sense lacking if he had no creative ambition. It’s quite possible that he managed to achieve a great deal more by simply choosing not to bother with such things and focusing instead on the work of his life, both in terms of his actual career but also the raising the supporting of myself and my sisters and my mother throughout our lives.
  • Sometimes I feel that we overvalue the work of ‘the creative’ in our society. In principle I support the right of people doing good and valuable creative work to earn a decent living; I mean, I think everyone should have access to a universal basic income, no matter what they do. But I would hesitate to apply any kind of exceptional value to the work of the average writer because in relative terms, what they do is so much less important than a enormous range of people who go largely forgotten, at least in formal terms.
  • The world would go on turning if a few thousand people woke up tomorrow and found that they had lost the urge to write. We’ll never know what we might have lost. But if we lost a few thousand social workers or nurses or caregivers — or mothers! or fathers! — the pain would be immediate, and real. 
  • I recognise the woman about to serve us at the checkout as one who refused to let us buy a bottle of wine (about twelve to eighteen months ago). She thought we were underage, and though I had ID, my partner didn’t; this rule that all parties involved must present proof of age was hitherto unknown to us, and there was no getting around it. Afterwards I wrote a polite complaint to the head office of this supermarket, pointing out that I had no objection to being asked for proof of age but that if they were also going to enforce this rule they should at least advertise it in store. I got a fairly generic reply — I wasn’t expecting anything more — but since then, I’ve never been asked for ID. Perhaps they keep a little picture of me behind every counter, but if the woman at the checkout recognised me, she made no sign. As with so much in life, I look back on my actions now with a vague sense of embarrassment. I hope I didn’t get anybody in trouble. 
  • I realise now that my scenario of comparing the vocation of writing with the vocation of parenting was a little unfair. One can do both well, as many writers have attested; I always recall J.G. Ballard’s reminder that his role as a single father and the presence of ‘the pram in the hall’ actually provided him with the time, motivation and inspiration to write, rather than weighing him down with worldly concerns in the way that many fear it might. 
  • Think of it a different way: what if hundreds of thousands of people simply decided not to have children and to pursue instead a career in the creative arts? Schools and colleges would be flooded by applicants in their twenties and thirties and forties, brandishing portfolios and sketchbooks and laptops, pregnant only with expectations and hopes and dreams. And they’d learn and they’d draw and write and make movies and plays and sculptures and music and games and some of it would be good and some of it would be terrible. And then what?
  • And then what? From the privileged heights of late modernity in Western Europe, it seems that just as everything useful as already been invented, every true development in art and culture has already occurred. Improvements are not born out of true innovation but are gradual iterations on what has come before; kids grow up to become software developers and write screenplays rather than taking up carpentry and poetry. You have heard this complaint before. But as the software developers like to say: we are where we are! There can be no reinventing the wheel, no stepping in the same river twice, and there can be no fixing of this bug because we’re right in the middle of a sprint right now so would you please submit a new report through the change programme and we’ll see if we can’t come up with a quote for you in ten working days.

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July 22, 2014 at 9:56pm
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dead leaves and the dirty ground

It has been pointed out to me that there is a contradiction between the enjoyment I get out of certain activities in Animal Crossing: New Leaf and the reluctance with which I embark on those activities in real life. In the game you can perform little tasks and mini-games like collecting fruit, digging up fossils, catching bugs and fishing in exchange for new clothes, tools and furniture for your house — but all of this is essentially optional, and you can do as much or as little as you like. Catching a bug or a fish takes a little patience, and a matter of seconds. It is nothing like the real thing, and it’s not intended to be, and that’s why I love it.

In my previous post I established that I don’t like home improvement; cleaning and cooking I don’t mind, and sometimes enjoy, but I have no interest in the kind of self-refinement through worldly goods that sells lifestyle magazines and TV shows. I am not interested in ornamentation or expansion for its own sake. I’m no utilitarian — I’ve amassed as much useful junk as anyone else — but in theory, what I want from a home is simply for it to be a place where I can be, undisturbed. I like a little gardening sometimes because gardening is just like tidying up except you’re just choosing what level and style of mess you can bear to live with.

Animal Crossing is a game about pottering. At any one moment there’s a whole list of things that you could be doing, but nothing is exceptionally urgent; all the game wants is that you pick it up and play with it once in a while. Unlike most games, it doesn’t streamline its interface to make it as simple as possible to keep you playing once you pick up the controller. In fact, AC:NL does the opposite: there’s something slow and fussy about the interaction of the systems that means it becomes hard to play for long periods at a time. Want to build an extension to your house? Okay: so farm and fish and hunt for two or three hours until you’ve ground out enough Bells to pay back your agent, Tom Nook. But after you’ve done all that work, the guy says your new room won’t be ready till tomorrow. In real time.

You aren’t meant to play it for such long periods, and to this end there are all kinds of obstacles in place which discourage extended play.  The size of your inventory is small, given how much stuff you’ll want to carry around this place, and selling your stash demands the same old conversation time and time again. Whenever you take the boat to the tropical island, which is the best place to collect a lot of valuable stuff in a short space of time, you have to listen to captain Kapp’n sing you a sweet, sad little song on the way there. (Actually you can mash the B button a while to skip his song. But then he tells you off for doing this.)

AC:NL is perfect for fitting into odd spaces in my life where I want to be doing something that requires a little thought but without threat of failure. There’s no risk that I won’t understand what to do next or feel lost or alone or scared. There is no fear, and fear is the one thing that motivates me above all else. There is no death in this world, no endgame, no victory; there are little prizes and badges and gifts, but they’re fleeting, and soon your gains become amassed in such quantities that even taking them to be recycled into cash becomes a bit of a chore.

You can’t break the things you find here. Everything lives forever. Dead flowers and weeds are the worst the game has to offer, and can be fixed with a moment’s attention. Or pluck them away like they were never there. All the time you put into the game is quietly appreciated, and ultimately paid back with interest in a series of small but undeniably pleasant surprises. 

The real world isn’t like that. Things fail, and you won’t be able to fix them. You have to do things you don’t like because if you don’t then nobody else will. You can’t just make a little money to top up your account whenever you feel like it. Entropy acts on all things, and everyone you love will be hurt and in pain and everything you like will rot and break and fall apart. But none of that will ever happen in Animal Crossing. You can boot up the save of a game from ten years ago and everything will be essentially as you left it, save a few weeds and lonely villagers. Everyone can be saved. 


You can visit my dream town at: 7000-3589-9451.

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July 19, 2014 at 6:11pm
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a whim and a mood

I returned home this afternoon in a foul mood. We’d come back from the garden centre on the bus laden with bags of compost, with new herbs and various other things, and it was very hot and my arms were aching, but that wasn’t the problem. The problem was that while getting off the bus I was in the middle of a story about the wreck of a local pub which has been abandoned for a number of years and how one night two men broke in there to find someone hanged behind the bar when one of the bags gave way and two of the terracotta pots we’d bought broke their rims on the ground. And I scowled and swore and picked up the remnants and carried them all home but it wasn’t till we got back that I sat down and felt bad.

This is what my life has become, I thought: I am the kind of person who goes to the garden centre at the weekend and who comes back overladen on the bus and who can’t even manage to carry the stuff home without breaking something. It wasn’t so much the breakage as the thought of an endless parade of saturdays like this stretching out before me, from now until the end of my life. Every weekend I would fill up the house with a further array of half-broken things I didn’t even want and sit in front of them like this, exhausted. 

All of this is just the worst, of course. I mean that in the strictly internet sense; to put it another way, I am the worst for thinking these things. The very fact that I have a home of my own which I can furnish as I want, the fact that I have disposable income to spend on gardening stuff, the fact that we have a public transport infrastructure capable of carrying my pampered white behind to and fro on a whim — all of that is unbelievable.

But what I wanted, broadly speaking, was to be left alone. I wanted the option to reject all of that, and not only for a moment. If I wasn’t going to the garden centre, then what would I do? I imagined myself living in a small white room somewhere, a cool white room, a room with a bed and a bathroom and a computer and somewhere to make food. There would be a roof and a floor and four walls and a door I could lock and I wouldn’t have to look after anything beyond my immediate needs. 

It’s a child’s dream — a particular kind of child, I suppose — but it’s childish regardless. It is ignoring the real and lingering pleasures of the totality of what we did today in favour of a kind of short-term, temporary anaesthetic. What I want is not instant gratification but only to exist in a state where nothing bad can happen and nothing can hurt me or make me feel sad. And in my pursuit of this place I become like the boy in the bubble in that one episode of Seinfeld: plied constantly with everything I want, I become angry and resentful at an outside world where everyone seems to be part of a secret conspiracy of ignorance or happiness or both.

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July 5, 2014 at 6:24pm
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on a rail


I am tempted to file the Knifepoint podcast within my imaginary mental cabinet titled things I like but can’t possibly tell anybody about, because I always find it hard to explain why I’m interested in stuff that’s both as grim and as obvious as this — but it deserves better than to be kept to myself. It’s an irregular broadcast which is composed of horror stories and weird fiction. The stories are relatively short and self-contained, often begin with the narrator simply announcing his name and background, and they are usually read out from a first-person perspective; as if they were actually being told to you, or you were reading a written record or confession. 

The tone is very subdued, very calm, very muted, even when the content becomes shocking. There’s not a lot of description, and hardly any dialogue. Often the narrator hardly has any significant relationships with other people; the focus is on entirely on the individual’s encounter with something strange. The stories are not always subtle, writhed as they are in gloom and gothic tropes, but the delivery is never melodramatic. The writing has a quality of directness which somehow convinces the listener that something terrible is always on the edge of happening — even when, more often than not, nothing does. And even though the stories often feature familiar horror staples (zombies, ghosts, vampires, etc) the author has a talent for the measured twist or the perfectly strange little detail which elevates these stories from being merely curious to something genuinely compelling. 

What attracts me to this kind of thing is the same thing that interests me generally in all kinds of fictional media. It’s not so much the use of the first-person perspective as it is the emphasis on subjective experience. As a reader, or as any kind of audience, what I want is to be submerged in the consciousness of another person until I almost become that person — and I say almost, because I still want to feel the mediating force of another presence. A better, stronger person than I might be — or a worse one. 

The format of this podcast is not dissimilar to the internet meme known as creepypasta. I’ve written about my interest in this before, and here’s an intriguing recent example which I picked up on via the twitter feed of games journalist Leigh Alexander. Those stories and videos often tend to be as short as you can imagine, all the better to cater for the limited attention span of the average reader on the internet, but there’s an essential intent common to both. While they start out as being somebody else’s story, the nature of the framing device is such that the reader can’t help but project themselves into the moment. The narrator is the equivalent of a funhouse car on the tracks of a ghost train ride; a re-usable vehicle which tilts and turns at every appropriate moment to ensure that our attention is always directed in the right place.


As I write this I’m thinking also of the first time I played Half-Life. Now regarded as one of the most significant video games of all time, it’s an important title because it did some incredible things with narrative in games. Here there was no attempt to emulate cinema through cutscenes where characters would leap around doing things you couldn’t possibly figure out how to do in the game, like in Dara O’Briain’s routine about Metal Gear Solid.

Instead, every aspect of Half-Life was presented to the player through the eyes of the protagonist, a regular guy who just happens to work as a lab assistant in a top-secret government research facility. The player is in full control of his movements and actions at all times, and though the verbs are still limited to the staples (shooting, jumping, pushing buttons, etc) absolutely everything was seen through the experience of this one individual. It was a tightly scripted and entirely linear experience — everything you saw and experienced had been programmed to occur at exactly the right moment — but it somehow felt like a new and intimate way of exploring a world. And it was often quite frightening, too. 

There is a plot in Half-Life, but I would suggest that most of it is insignificant to the overall value of the game. When I played it for the first time I actually had the sound either very low or switched off entirely because the PC was in a shared family room, and so because the details of the story are only related to the player by the few living scientists encountered on the way, I missed out on the details of the story-as-it-was-spoken. But none of that mattered! The really important stuff that happens in Half-Life isn’t what is told to you, but what happens right in front of your eyes. The inane witterings of some primitive hunk of polygons with a Phd suddenly seem insignificant when a massive green tentacle smashes through the lab window and starts probing the room in search of those soft fleshy things it can hear but not see.

It’s interesting to see what the recent surge in online streaming has done for video games. Suddenly it seems like people not only take a great deal of pleasure in playing dark and violent ghost train games like Outlast but they also cast themselves on the internet while they’re playing. And why bother buying it when somebody’s put the whole thing on YouTube for free? I’m not a fan of this approach myself, but I can appreciate why some people enjoy it. Perhaps the experience is akin to watching a horror movie with a group of friends rather than on your own. A great deal of fun, I’m sure; but not everything that’s fun is interesting, and vice versa. Some things you just have to see for yourself.

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June 29, 2014 at 9:34pm
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among thieves


I played and finished Uncharted 2: Among Thieves, which is not in itself an especially notable achievement, but I want to write about it anyway. It is a game for the PS3 which came out in 2009, making it about the same age as the Macbook on which I am writing this entry; and despite the fact that newer and flashier models are available, both game and laptop have held up pretty well for their age. 

I was hardly playing many video games back in 2009, partly because I had nothing to play them on; I still kept up an interest, but I didn’t think of myself as a person who played new games. It wasn’t till 2011 that I bought a PS3 after finally realising that I had some money and a place to play it, and (most importantly) that my parents were no longer there to disapprove of a silly games machine. But even before that I was always playing some little stupid thing; I played a few smaller, older PC games obsessively, and just before I got this Mac in 2009 I played the early versions of Spelunky on my old Dell Inspiron 5150 which was a computer so cranky you sometimes had to push down on the case in a particular way just to get it to boot up. 

I remember being briefly obsessed by an odd little freeware game called Black Shades. In this game you play a bodyguard in a crowded city, drawn out in simple untextured polygons, and you have to run around gunning down zombies, snipers and assassins before they eliminate the man you are supposed to be protecting. I must have played this for hours and hours and hours, and I have no idea what was so fascinating about it; certainly there was not much my laptop could run, but perhaps there was something else about the relentless sense of paranoia that I found compelling. It was totally primitive and absolutely thrilling.


When I did my Master’s degree in 2009 I really thought I could make a fresh start. I was going back to my alma mater, but I told myself that this time it would be different. I would be friendly, popular, outgoing. I would be relaxed, affable. I would be fun. I would be the kind of person with whom people wanted to be friends. People would come and knock on my door just to talk to me! I’d even started this cool blog (the one which you are reading now) but that was going to be my secret internet persona, only to be shared with those closest to me. 

And I screwed it up! I screwed it up completely. I said stupid things that scared and alienated people. Some of them thought I was mad. The invitations dried up. Other people found their own level, and I went off on my own. I ended up burying myself deeper in my studies. I did quite well at that regard; not exceptionally well, but I did all right. And I wasted a chance to be a different, better person.

Since then I have come to accept a different version of myself: I am a person who just doesn’t really have a social life, and who doesn’t try especially hard to make friends. This actually runs contrary to many of the things I think about the nature of personality, and how nobody ever really grows up or stops changing as a person, and how you shouldn’t use the fact that you suffered as a child to hold you back in later life; but whatever. As we like to say at work: we are where we are. The only person I still see from those days is my girlfriend, who I started going out with in 2009 and who probably got me through the most difficult times of that year.


I was told recently by a relative that I will never be as rich as I am now, in the broadest sense of the term. And he was right: I have no immediate responsibilities beyond looking after myself. I have no dependents. By all rights I should be taking risks with my career. But instead I’ve held down the same job for over four years. I work hard, quietly, faithfully. I could count the number of sick days I’ve taken on one hand. After my dad died I didn’t take any time off — not because it wasn’t offered, but because going to the office gave me a feeling of purpose and direction that I lack at home. Work is the one place where I know I am wanted, even if that’s only because they’ve got a contract with my name on it. It is a good place, and it is not what I want to do with my life forever.

The problem is that none of the things I want to do with my life have much in common with making money. Right now there’s a sort of meme in currency in the world of video games writing that says that even though (or perhaps because) conventional forms of print journalism and criticism aren’t making much money, there are lots of great writers on the internet who are doing good and valuable work and who deserve to be paid for it. This is true, I think; but it’s no more true of video games than it is for any other media. It’s strange to me that so many people are finding it a shock to discover that freelance writing is a fragile career that doesn’t pay the bills and offers nothing in the way of security; but when was it ever otherwise?


I feel set in my ways. My idea of a good time is to be left alone. And the pleasure of living vicariously through games is, I think, often underrated. An Uncharted title is one of those games which I’ll gladly collapse in front of in an evening with the expectation of being entertained and impressed; of course there is also a degree of challenge, but in the end I play the game to be told a story. And it’s more than a story, in fact, since on paper the story is nothing to write home about. I play to go on an adventure. 

The depiction of Nepal in Uncharted 2 is beautiful, and even though it’s my favourite thing about the game, nothing about its history or culture is explained. As in the movies, it is a meticulously rendered depiction which might as well be set on the surface of the moon. Here, history does not seem like something that could have been made by human beings; it is something alien and fearful, an Orientalist world full of terrifying mystery and unimaginable wealth. 


It is objectionable in all kinds of ways. Yet I can’t help but wonder at the craft of the thing. The detail of the setting is such that I was reminded of an expedition I went on many years ago to Tibet; a different country to Nepal but which is not dissimilar in many regards. The whole style of the place, from the colourful prayer flags and omnipresent tea flasks to the elegant practicality of the architecture, seemed just right to me.

One sequence allows the player to simply walk around a little Himalayan village with nothing in particular to do. The button on the controller which normally throws a punch is briefly reassigned to shaking hands with villagers, playing with the local children, and petting the local yaks. Nothing they say to you is subtitled because Nathan Drake doesn’t know the language. It’s lovely.


I often feel frustrated when I read about how the best games are the biggest and most ‘open’, or how the future of the medium lies in simulating an ever-wider range of systems and structures, as if the ultimate aim were to approach a total simulation of our world as we know it. No Man’s Sky is a forthcoming game which (it is claimed) will allow the player to explore a procedurally-generated universe, and it has rightfully attracted a great deal of interest for its use of a striking visual aesthetic on a scale which has, until now, been the stuff of video game dreamtime.

Yet to say that the game will represent an entire universe is surely a categorical error. On an infinite scale, stars and planets are no more part of the universe than a cup of coffee. Gone Home is equally a model of a universe, in its way. But modelling stars and planets is so much easier in video game terms than modelling a cup of coffee in its entirety; this much has been apparent at least since Spacewar. Planets and stars and spaceships are fun: here is a thing and here is another thing, and one is inflicting a status effect on the other. But the game has yet to be made which has something interesting to say about a cup of coffee.

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May 26, 2014 at 7:12pm
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The video above is an entry in the ‘Other Places’ series which celebrates the beautiful worlds of video games. This one is set in Drangleic, the world of Dark Souls II. I recommend you play it in full screen with the sound on.

There’s this site about video games called Objective Game Reviews. As single-joke websites go, it’s a pretty good site, and a pretty good joke. The idea is that those who read, comment on and frequently disagree with game reviews often do so on the basis that they are merely one person’s opinion, as if the writer had failed their craft by neglecting to adopt a purely detached perspective.

The overall tone of the site is arch, and assumes a certain amount from its readership, though it could be argued that it actually requires less than the average game news/reviews hub. The reviews themselves are written in prose but they are essentially just lists of features and gameplay elements; this is what you get with an ‘objective’ review, the site suggests, because everything that could possibly make a review more interesting comes from a ‘subjective’ point of view. It follows that everything that makes the game itself interesting also comes from a ‘subjective’ point of view because a good game is so much more than the sum of its individual components.

And in some ways it feels unfair to call the site a joke; part of its appeal is that there is actual pleasure in reading those perfectly stripped-down summaries of what makes a video game happen. Typical is something like this, which says absolutely everything and nothing about the game in question:

'Deus Ex: Human Revolution features seventeen weapons, nineteen augmentations, fifteen side missions, twenty five main missions, crates that can be stacked on each other, four boss fights, four kinds of grenades which can be used as mines, thirteen kinds of weapon mods, one nightclub, nine consumable items that recharge health or energy, robots, and a bomb.'

The site has recently toned down the coolly satirical element and now also champions the work of what it calls ‘subjective games reviewers’, as well as showing off some more unusual games that go way beyond the average blockbuster in transcending the basic ingredients of their existence. There’s an aspect of an authorial cult of personality to this, and in a world where it is increasingly difficult to find a readership I don’t have a problem with that. It seems to me like many video game writers have been increasingly aggressive in their self-promotion of late, but that might simply be because there are relatively few outlets where they can expect to be paid a decent living while still maintaining a degree of creative freedom. The internet is a marketplace where attention is a valuable commodity, and if you have ambition you’ve really no choice but to promote yourself in whatever way you can.  

Yet there’s something I find puzzling about the suddenly serious angle to what was previously just a kind of joke. If the point of the site was to demonstrate the vacuity of terms like ‘objective criticism’, then to champion ‘subjective criticism’ is to imply that it exists in contrast to something that is worth opposing. It suggests that there are tendencies in games writing which are worth opposing, but it’s no longer quite clear what those are. Were the examples of ‘objective’ criticism displayed on the site simply just meant to be exposes of bad writing all along?  

All of which brings me back to my favourite topic: my own opinions. They are, I’m told, subjective. And yet I have always aimed in my writing at something that wasn’t always just about me. I look at a thing and try to think of something interesting and new to say about it that might be prompted by how I feel, but isn’t necessarily encompassed or defined by my feelings. Actual inspiration of the lightbulb sort is rare for me. I work things out by thinking them through and writing about them. I won’t pretend that I am any more reasonable than anyone else in that regard, and I would never pretend to possess an ounce of ‘common sense’, but I have always resented the notion that the finest writing comes from a direct outpouring of the heart.

In flat contradiction to much of what I’ve just written, my reasons for objecting to the romantic approach are essentially unreasoned and personal. I am not good at expressing my feelings in any form, and so naturally I tend not to want to do it any more than is expected. It is a dangerous failing to conflate ‘things that I happen to be good at’ with ‘things that are right and proper’ for people in general; but it is, I confess, something I do on a regular basis. 

This is why I have trouble writing anything authoritative. I fill every uncertain corner with caveats that stem from my lack of self-confidence. I feel, for example, that I ought to have a strong opinion about Dark Souls II. I took the day off work on the release of that game to play it, and I’m still playing it at the moment (after spending well over sixty hours on my first playthrough). One possible description of a good video game is that it is capable of occupying the attention of a player for an extended period of time, and on that basis this is nothing if not a very good game. But my actual feelings about it are so wrapped up in those so-called ‘subjective’ and ‘objective’ points of view that I don’t know where to start in writing about it. 

Objectively: this is a better game than its predecessor. It is more of the same experience; you control a lone undead warrior from a third-person perspective, and you venture into a series of increasingly strange and spectacular fantasy worlds inhabited by creatures which (mostly) want to kill you. There are more monsters, more items, more areas, more multiplayer modes and more characters than ever before. Moreover, many elements which oblique in Dark Souls or Demon’s Souls have been simplified or streamlined. That said, there’s much which is still pleasingly obscure, including a ton of secrets and optional areas for those who are frequently tempted to stray beyond the well-trod path. 

Subjectively: this game isn’t as good as Dark Souls. I keep comparing scenes from the sequel against the original, and I keep finding the more recent game lacking. I think: is there anything here as incredible as your first encounter with the red drake on the bridge of the Undead Burg? Is there anywhere as beautiful and compelling as the Darkroot Garden or Anor Londo? Is there any sense of narrative continuity that rivals the descent from Firelink Shrine all the way through the Depths, then down further through the vertiginous shaft of knotted trunks that forms the Great Hollow to the haunting dunes of the Ash Lake

This is not to say that the new game isn’t capable of moments of intense beauty and stillness. They are still present — but they aren’t quite correct. It’s a work from the same school, without doubt, but it lacks the touch of the master. That said, I play the Souls games for a very particular kind of experience and atmosphere that isn’t really available anywhere else, in any art form; and in this regard the sequel certainly delivers.

It often seems to me that playing one of these games is like being inside a painting: a world where everything is crafted and considered around the presence of the observing figure, but where its elements only come to life when you are there to encounter them. This seems to me to be the opposite approach to almost every other ‘open world’ game; there is absolutely no effort made here to imply that this is a perpetual place in which things are happening when you aren’t there to look at them. Every creature and every character has their place, and while they might pursue or flee from your presence, when you leave they will always return to their spot because it is their home. They were always going to be there, will always be there. And it is no coincidence, I think, that one of the most haunting (and brilliantly designed) areas in Dark Souls is a world which exists inside a painting.  

I don’t think a ‘subjective’ or ‘objective’ approach is always more interesting or valid. But the two don’t have to be considered as dialectic approaches either; these terms are ultimately only words we use to imagine two different perspectives which don’t actually exist. Neither of them does anything to convey the myriad of things which a person might think and feel when encountering any kind of cultural production.

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